In school now. Thought by doing this, it will distract me from thinking. Until now, half day spent, nothing has successfully distracted me. Many thoughts and doubts inside me as there's nobody who can really answer to my question. E.g Where's my dad? 

It's impossible for me to get over in only a few weeks. But still, I'm trying hard. There's quite a few plans going on before that happens. So now, I really have to think over and over again if I should still continue with those plans. Not going to make up any decision until my mum's settle down. She's strong but I know it'll still be uneasy for her.

Why is life this way?