I wish for a way to tell you my feelings. When you're around, everything is (so well) under your control. Frankly, I still couldn't let myself face the reality that you're gone. I'm mentally broke down for two days, and still trying to keep myself calm on the outside. This time round, I going to live for myself and you. :)

I'm just feeling tired...at home.
And I don't wish to stay at home any longer.